Sayang

Assalamualaikum.
How are you? OK? kalau ok bagus la.
So. Today I am going to make a review about this new song sang by an Indonesian singer named Shae. She is so beautiful because of her mixed blood of Australian and Indonesian. Her voice is kinda mature and rough not like some other female singer who has quite a feminine and cute voice. You should try listen to her. Here's a link.

Entitled SAYANG. The lyrics... i love them. I love singing this song to Miyun so we officially called this song, OUR SONG. Hheheh :D
I also tried playing this song on guitar,here's a link to its chords.
 http://tabs.ultimate-guitar.com/s/shae/sayang_crd.htm
btw, I also sang this song to Miyun and record it and sent it to him. I hope he really likes it. :)

Stupid me

So today I'm gonna write about something that happened between me and Amirun. I didn't mean to talk about our fight here, but I am just going to write about how stupid I am in this relationship.

You have no idea, how much I love Amirun Syazwan. 5 minutes without him makes me worried and I can't stay calm, if I stand, I still I should move, If I sit, I think I should stand, and If I move, I think I should just lay down. Maybe this is what they called love. Kak Yati told me that if one falls in love, it's normal that we lost our appetite, always fight and feel like crying every day. It's absolutely true, if I don't have him to tell me to go and eat, I can't eat and I don't feel like eating. I ate some but I can't finish them all. If he didn't call me before bed, I would start worrying and can't go to sleep. It's obvious that I am in love with him deeply. Unlike my past relationship, I never feel like this. If I want to sleep, I just go to sleep. But when I'm with him, everything seems so imperfect without him. OMG. This is getting weird. I am obsessed with him! :O

So, let's get to the point which relates to the tittle. Stupid me for treating him badly. He likes to play around with me. Pretend I did something really bad when I did just a small mistake. I, who is super sensitive would start crying, :'( and he will start asking me to stop crying, because he care for me. I should just be like super chill and totally understand all his jokes but damn it, I am trying to hard to be cute to him that I forgot about his feeling. Seriously, I think I should stop being so gedik, and be mature. This relationship will only work if I start be a mature person. It's not that hard to just listen to what he wants and follow. He listens to me, when I told him to call me, he called.That's good enough for me.

Sorry about this crazy love issues.
The other day, I watched Cinderella on Disney Channel. In the movies, Cinderella is so patient solving her problem and helping others and make others happy too. Her character is so nice and sweet, all men would fall for her if she is a human. I want to be like her. Nice, understanding and perfect for Amirun. I love everything about him. There's nothing that is not perfect about him to me. I must try harder to change myself for him.. :) Wish me luck.

The Holidays

This year's holiday..way adventurous but not physically but emotionally.
So here's a timeline, I would like to call to point out the important things that happens during the holiday. Which mostly happens in Miri, Sarawak.

1. Went to Klang - Stayed at Abah's house for 3 days before flying to Miri. Had some complication over here. Had to cover up the talk under the blanket.

2. Went to Miri - You have no idea what I did in the flight.

3. Went to the hospital almost everyday. and did absolutely nothing at home. watched TV and read some books, did some homeworks.

4. Lock myself in the back room and talk to my beloved Miyun. and wake up super late and sleep super late.

5. Got some emergency topup from Kak Yati. Thank you sister. :)

6. Wait for Miyun to finish his SPM paper and get some SPOTs for him.

7. 3/12/2012 - My first baby nephew was born and its a girl. Named Aisy Azzahra binti Ahmad Ikhwan.

8. Got scolded by my mom cause of some particular reason, wont be mentioned.

9. Ate durian. which is awesome!

10. Went archery for the first time and it was so hard and hurts my hand a lot.

11. Learned how to carry my nephew, sadly didn't take any picture. :(

12. Fly back to Klang. and stayed at sister's house for 4 days.

13. Gained some knowledge about Miyun and trying to improve myself for him.

14. Went back home, start redoing my homework and start studying for next year.

15. In need of some money and planning to sell some stuffs.

I think that's all, or maybe there's more. I can't remember clearly.
Anyway, I watched THE HOLIDAYS again yesterday with my sister and finally, this time I listened and read the subtitle carefully, which totally helped me in my love issues. I'll try to recall what the actress said in the movie and this is what I understand. Cameron Diaz talked about long distance relationship with Jude Law. which is in the same condition as me and Miyun. So she said, something like this, "We are going to be away from each other and everything is going to be okey for a couple of months. But then, after 5 months, we gonna start fighting because that's the only thing we can do. Then we break out and never meet each other again. OMG what am I saying." These are what she said, as I recall. Then Jude Law said back "I'm in love with you and all I know is I love you." kinda like that. yeah.. Then, they both decided to work this out, they try to meet each other and be helpful in this relationship, because they really like each other. So, I guess they worked it out. I was thinking about explaining this to Miyun but still didn't figure it out. It's not about us being apart, it's about us being together and nothing can break us apart, nothing, time, distance, nothing can tare us apart. If we love each other, we will work hard to make sure both of us are together, forever. Prays and Wills. We can do it. I do my part and you do yours and all we need is trust. If we trust each other, everything would be easy. After all, it is just going to be a year, by then, I can meet him everyday. Okey. This need some time to settle.

I think that's all for today. Talked long enough for every one to read. Just wanted to let everything out of my head for a moment. :)

Assalamualaikum

Welcome backo

Wow.
It has been a seriously long time since my last post and I am starting to forget my blog. I've gonna admit, I am on Tumblr like every day. I do have some stuffs to write on blog but you know, laziness kills plans.

So, end year holiday has begin and I am currently at home settling down with my homework and my emotions. This year's trip is, yet again, Miri, Sarawak, but this time we have a special occasion there which is the birth of my first nephew, my parents' first grandchild and my Along's first daughter. It's probably going to be a girl..not 100% confirmed just yet.

As for school, for final exam, I've got 3rd in batch. WEE!! Alhamdulillah. I worked hard and prayed and thank you Allah for this. But I still have to improve for SPM and I'm heading for straight A+, thus this is another reason of my trip to Sarawak that is to prepare myself for SPM. There is billions (exaggerating)  conflicts before I come back home and I don't actually want to talk about it. After all, I just been through another conflict yesterday but Alhamdulillah, it solved just the way I wanted it to be.
Wanna know something new about me? Well, let's begin.

I am now (probably) engaged to Amirun Syazwan bin Kamarudzaman. A 17 years old boy from Langkawi. He is my boyfriend, publicly said. The way I know him and the journey of our early 2 months relationship is seriously awkward yet challenging. Totally tested my patience and endurance. I have no idea why I typed endurance but I want that word to be there so... whatever... We fought every single day but I've tried to avoid some of those fights, and sometimes we are sweet to each other. Like a couple, you know, cuddle, calling names, blaming etc. That's how I get to know him better and how my love grows deeper day by day. However, we still are facing a bit problem in trust. We still couldn't trust each other 100%, for he is always scared that I would leave him like his ex, and I am scared he would leave me just like my ex. At last, we finally decided to let go of the past and stop comparing each other with our exes. There you have, I hope I could make this love last forever. Seriously thou, I want this relationship to last till Jannah. InsyaAllah. Pray for us ohkey.

Well, that's about it for now. Nothing much interesting other than Facebook, Twittah and One Direction and of course my beloved Miyun (that's what I address him on FB and Twittah). I am waiting for his call now actually. Maybe he is busy, so I'll wait. and lastly. HAPPY HOLIDAY EVERYONE!!

p/s : yes. I love amirun syazwan so damn much. :3

So Long

Seriously.
It has been a long time since my last post. SO LONG!!. The only reason why is because I'm not at home and don't have the appropriate time to update my blog. My current acts are resting at home for a week before going back to my hostel. I fainted last Wednesday, so the doctor said I need to have a break at home and try to calm my trauma. I can't move too much and I can't do any vigorous acts, cause then my right head will start aching.

A lot of stuffs happens while I'm KUPSIS since I got back for Eid. I got new friends and improve my friendships with all my members at KUPSIS. I also celebrated Liam's birthday at my hostel but luckily I got the chance to celebrate Niall's at home. Fish YEAH! Mah boys birthdays are damn important to meh.

Here I insert a picture. Who is this dude? I'm not gonna tell you. I'll keep his real identity a secret. Whatever comes first in your head about him is absolutely wrong. Think again, until you find the right answer.

This is just a boring game to colourize my post. I guess that's all for now. Will update more soon or maybe in next 2 months. Who knows? Just wait.

Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah Hiwabarakatuh.
Alhamdulillah I'm still alive after such crazy days living in KUPSIS.
Here we are again. It's Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. Such a special month for every Muslim. Soon, it will be Syawal. Alhamdulillah this year went well unlike last year. Lots of problems.
As everyone acknowledge, during Ramadhan, satans and demons are chained and doors to heaven are open. These means one thing. If we did something bad, that bad thoughts come from ourself. Which means during this month we will find out who we really are ; a good person and the other way around.
This year, I will be fasting with my friends unlike last year and the years before which I fasted with my beloved family. Huhuh.. so gonna miss them and the bazaar Ramadhan's food. :'(
Soon, there'll be exam..and other stuffs I don't care about. I think that's all. SALAM RAMADHAN EVERYONE!

Boarding School

Alhamdulillah. I was finally offered to a boarding school. It's not a number 1 boarding school but it is a good school. I'm leaving for it on Sunday. Leaving my friends in Ibrahim is a huge deal. I have made such awesome buddies along 4 years of my studies in SMK Ibrahim. I love all my friends. They are the best buddies I've ever had. Sometimes they got on my nerves but sometimes they just know how to make me laugh.

I'm leaving for SMS Kubang Pasu in Jitra. Most of my friends said don't leave. I mean all of them said don't leave. They came up with hundreds of reasons why I shouldn't leave. One of my close friend, Yi Hui, cried because I'm going to change school. She scold me and said I shouldn't leave now. LOL. I was speechless watching my friends. I don't mind about the teachers actually. It's just the friends that I care and love so much. I will miss them a lot. And I will cherish every single awesome moments I had with them.

The other day, I went out to watch the best movie ever made, The Avengers. I went there with my friends and of course my newly known friend, Amirul Aiman, @forte_amirul . We had known each other for just 2 days and we are already out to catch movie together. He is a vey nice and cute guy. He's one year older than me. One thing I know about him, he has a very good english and he is not a gamer. When I played in the arcade, he just stood behind me and watched me shoot. He doesn't look interested in games. LOL. That's just weird. for me. I guess.

IRON MAN! TONY STARK! must be given a Sir.. Robert Downey Jr.
OMG! I love him so much. He is the best superhero I've even seen. When I was watching him in actions, I was like "IS THIS REAL LIFE?! I'M GONNA CRY! DON'T DIE IRONMAN! U NO DESTROY TONY'S TOWER!" The movie is so epic I want to download it and watch it over and over again. With Hawkeye, Captain America, British speaking Thor, Black Widow aka Agent Romanoff, Hulk, Fury, British speaking evil nemesis Loki and Robin Scherbatsky from How I Met Your Mother. I watched the movie in 3D with Amirul. We sat at the most front row and everything look so real. Thanks to Amirul for buying me popcorn and drink but never give me the drink until the movie ends. I NAK MINUM LA! Lol

That's all for now. I'll update more when I have time. Talk to you soon. THANKS AMIRUL :D

16 like a Sir

29. March . 1996

I usually hate this date a lot. But this year, I'm gonna make it special. I don't need birthday wishes or gifts or my friends to celebrate it with me. I just want to be happy and excited the whole day! Jump whenever I want, smile whenever I want, scream to anyone I want. Be as crazy as shitz just for the day I was born out from my mum's womb. Thanks to my beloved mum and dad for everything they had done for me for over 16 years. LOVE THEM ♥ 

I didn't get any cakes for my birthday this year although I wish I will get one just like the ones above. But my parents are having some financial problem so not having cake this year is cool for me. I've received many presents from my friends and family for my Merry Unbirthday. So, they don't have to give me any more gifts during my birthday. Thank you so much to my sister, Kak Suad, for buying and sending me stuffs about One Direction. She also bought me a brand new blue handbag from China. My Along, who had took care of me for 2 months and always advice me to be a good student and daughter in the family. Thank you so much for all the money and time you had spent with me especially when you spent your time teaching me guitar although you are tired after a long day working. A billions of thanks to my Kak Yati, who had helped me study while I was in Miri, who was always so childish and fun to joke around with. I pray that you and my brother will soon have a big family. Good Luck. Thanks to my Iman, who always makes me look more genius whenever we are around mom. Thanks to my Kakeman who always makes me want to look a lot more prettier by appearing beautiful in public and thank you for being my stylist. My handsome brother, Abang Izzat, who spent time for me eating meatballs in IKEA and walk around looking for fishes in IKANO POWER CENTRE. Finally, a trillions of thanks to my parents who had always support me and help me in my studies and make me who I am today.  Sorry for the mistakes I've made, and thanks you for everything. Love You. ♥

Touched yet? 

I also want to thank my friend, Nabila and Nadia. They are the most awesome best friend ever and I love talking, blabbering and fighting with them. They are like my sisters now. I love every moment with you guys. ♥ you. 

I guess that's all. Mind the long post. It's my 16th birthday. I'm sixteen now!! Alhamdulillah...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANIS SOFEA ♥ !!

My Obsession

OK! Let's talk about my new obsession that is ONE DIRECTION. I am so in love with them. They have the voice, the look, the attitude and the Nialler. I love Niall the most. I'm totally obsessed with them. I even have a tote bag designed with them. I made it at http://nodesignerhere.blogspot.com/ Go and check it now. It's a very good and creative blog. I would like to order some more 1D begs soon. :D

At first, I am the only Directioner among my friends, but then I started to sing their songs to everyone in school, thus the disease started to spread. Now, my bestfriends are Directioner.

Among the 5 boys, I love Niall the most. He is amazing! He plays guitar so well, he has an awesome accent, he has a beautiful voice and he loves food! This is what I like the most about him. Can you imagine how much food will you get to eat if you go out dinner with him? They would be a lot! And a lot is awesome!

Alhamdulillah I have such a lovely sister. My sister bought me a 1D Up All Night Album last month. I was so happy!! I am so obsessed with 1D, I love to collect all posters of them. Looking at them in my room everyday is my hobby now. 

Don't worry. I love Louis, Harry, Liam and Zayn too. I love everything about 1D. 

Sorry for such a crazy obsession update about 1D. Well, at least I'm not a bielieber. 

Thoughts and Traps

Do you have a simple thought in your mind that you know can change a big part of someone's life, but you have to keep it inside you? I do. I have a lot of thoughts about people, rules and the world. But I'm too scared to tell anyone. Except my parents. The problem is my parents are not the one I want to point out my thoughts too. I want to speak out my mind to the right person. But damn it. Fear has taken our my mind. 

Different people, have different thoughts or ideas. We could share them and make a better verdict. I could do it, if the person I want to share my thoughts is open minded. But no one is open minded these days. Only a few people are. 

I need to be brave and just let everything on my mind out. Not everything I think are wrong. 

Important

Since a few days ago, I started to learn something important. I need to love myself more and choose what's best for me and not for anyone else. I need to craft my own path without taking care of other people's feelings, because if I do care about other people's feelings more than my own feelings and thoughts, I will destroy myself. Pity is absolutely not an issue here. I can't decide what's best for others but also what is wrong for me. I should put myself above others. No. This is not selfish. It's called, Loving Myself before start loving others. I need to remember, it's okay to hurt other people's feelings just to take care of ourself. There's nothing wrong with that.

School Reopen

Yeah! The school is here. I love going to school, meeting my friends, being awkward all the time and learn something new. The first day of school is awesome. Form 4 semua duduk dalam bilik kuliah untuk orientasi, so the first mmg tak buat apa la, tu pasal bes. The first upper form recess and blah blah blah. Esok dah nak masuk kelas. Hoping for the best class with the best teacher. Amiin. I also smiled the whole day at school today. A good beginning for 2012! 

Hope everyone will have fun in school before we miss it. Have fun and always smile! :D